i need the patch, and the gum, and the self help books...

i have an addiction. its become a problem in my life and it is keeping me from moving forward. some of you may already know about it. Its something that comes up in my life a lot and it is truly a burden that i must get rid of if i am ever going to have a healthy relationship in my life

i'm addicted to crushes

i have become a master of finding a boy who is a safe distance away from me, be it physical space, the presence of a girlfriend or the ever popular fictional character who doesn't actually exist and decide that that is the man i should spend the rest of my life with. I proceed to fantasize about how wonderful a relationship would be with this completely unatainable person until i'm bored or i find a new person to have a safely fruitless crush on.

we would go on these dates (always funny movies or quirky restaurants, maybe watching some tv on dvd and having a wonderful cuddle session), we would go here when we met each others family, we would hang out with these people, we wouldn't go on double dates w/ these people but we would with these people, he would where this half zip sweater from jcrew that just got marked down, he would buy me these socks, we would get in these fights about these silly things and in the end make up because we are just so madly in love and nothing else matters.

we would break up because he drinks too much or because henever got over his ex or because he has to move to india to study elephants in order to pursue his passion of having a tv show about animals like jeff corwin.

shoot, well someday i'll meet an actually available boy who makes me want to buy half zip sweaters for and fight with about why he always only compliments my hair when its straight and not curly, but until then i guess i'll stick with the fictional men of gilmore girls and so on...